100 Days of Why Day 52 & 53

Day 52
Because I want to LIKE pictures of me, not feel like I look fat. I'm tired of telling my husband "let me see that before you post it to facebook".

Day 53
Because I need to be present in more pictures of my children. I want them to remember the memories. I need to be in more pictures, without torturing myself thinking they look awful.

100 Days of Why Day 51

Because it's not just about motivation. It's about persistence. And I will not give up.

Lacking insulation

Found this on FB this morning. Feels just about right for me. Down 24lbs of insulation!

Was talking to a friend about being so cold, he said maybe you’re sick..I said “nahh im just down 31,5 lbs insulation”

100 Days of Why Day 50

Because I can control my body even when I am craving something. I don't NEED to give in.

Week 7 Weigh In

Lost 3.2 pounds! How unexpected! I even asked the weigh in lady if she was joking haha!

Brings me to 24.6lbs lost and only 0.4lbs until my 25lb charm! It also earns me my 10% loss.

This week was ROUGH. I couldn't stop thinking about chocolate all week. I didn't cave, but I managed to plan in chocolates where possible this week. I wasn't expecting much loss at all. It was showing me as gaining weight as of thursday so I amped up the water and watched my points. Oh and this all was in addition to eating THIRTY-SEVEN points in cookies on sunday.... It was 3 cookies that we made from scratch. Ouch!! Then yesterday, AF showed up, which explains the chocolate cravings this week so I expected to be up due to water retention from that.

I'm so relieved that it worked out for me. All I was hoping for was half a pound loss.

SW 246.2
CW 221.6

Calendar Challenge - October

100 Days of Why Day 48 & 49

Day 48
Because I'm not going to let a gain week throw me off and screw me up.

Day 49
Because this time it's about me, my health, my feelings about myself.

100 Days of Why Day 46 & 47

Day 46
Because I don't need soda pop and I prefer other things over it 9/10 times.

Day 47
Because I love seeing the changes in the mirror.

Soda Musings

Discovered something about myself the other day.

First some facts:

1. I enjoy water. Fridge cold, through a straw. Which is a good thing for losing weight. 
2. I also enjoy soda and in the past I've had issues with drinking way too much (like 5-6 cans of diet per day, yes I know diet is bad for you ty).
3. I need a drink with dinner and I chug it, drinking 20oz usually by the time I'm done.
4. I kicked the soda habit for the most part because I was sick of the caffeine giving me headaches if I didn't want to keep up the same quantity from day to day. Usually I drink at least 80-100oz of water per day now.

I can't drink very much soda anymore. I used to drink 20oz at a time and go back for more. Now I pour myself about 10oz in the evenings and usually end up tossing it when it gets flat or makes my teeth feel icky.

EXCEPT if I drink it with meals. I'll still chug my soda then, and the whole 20oz, and I will really enjoy it, the way I used to, not the way it feels when I drink it alone now.


But I don't want to. If I crave soda, I'll drink a bit.

100 Days of Why Day 44 & 45

Day 44
Because I'm tired of quitting on myself.

Day 45
Because I'm determined to surpass my streak of leaving around 30ish lbs lost and 18ish weeks in.

100 Days of Why Day 41-43

Day 41
Because I didn't quit or give in to temptation on a rough week after a gain and LOST! Motivation reignited.

Day 42
Because it's not always necessary to be in "celebration mode" at a restaurant. It's okay to eat like a home meal at a restaurant.

Day 43
Because I went out for dinner, ordered a meal different from what I usually order and didn't even miss my normal dinner! I usually ordered a cuban (pulled pork, ham, swiss, pickles, bun) with fries and cornbread and ate all the leftover cornbread from everyone else because it's good. Instead I ordered a plate of pork by itself, fries, a plain bun (intended to make a sandwich with the pork) and it came with 2pc cornbread already. I immediately cut my bun in half and gave half to the toddler and shared my fries. I ate all my pork, a few fries and 1.5 pieces of cornbread. Tracked and was within my points for the day. BAM! I can do this. I can make better choices. I'll leave my favourite items for special meals.

Week 6 Weigh In

Lost 4.2 whopping pounds! Holy wow! 

Brings me to 21.4lbs lost in 6 weeks. This is the fastest it's ever come off in the past. I'm thrilled that it's working and working well for me!

SW 246.2
CW 224.8

100 Days of Why Day 40

Because my ankles hurt less now, but after a day on my feet, they're still super sore.

Struggling

I'm really struggling with my motivation lately. That gain last week, though I tried not to allow it to get me down, really has messed with my head. I realize I'm down 17.2 lbs in 5 weeks, but I'm just so munchy and tired and feeling like it's not worth it.

I'll be relieved if I find out in a week that it's actually PMS and that was water retention, but who knows. Cycle is perma messed since children and I can't count on anything.

I'm liking how my clothes are fitting better though. Trying to find the good things about this all and reasons to stick with it despite how I'm feeling currently.

100 Days of Why Day 38 & 39

Day 38
Because I am in control.

Day 39
Because my cravings don't have to win.

100 Days of Why Day 36 & 37

I'm finding it hard to remember which things I've used and which I haven't!

Day 36
Because my clothes are feeling looser.

Day 37
Because I'm not dealing with as much pain anymore!

Week 5 Weigh In

Boo! My half week from wed-sun resulted in a gain. I didn't expect MUCH loss, but I did expect some. I guess perhaps I was retaining water plus perhaps that 4lbs loss last week was just a bit much. At least with a gain on my record, WW might leave me alone about the rapid weight loss.

Up 0.6lbs. Bringing me down to 17.2lbs lost in 5 weeks. Which is still DAMN good. 

SW 246.2

CW 229

100 Days of Why Day 31-35

The "Why WW?" Edition

Day 31
Because I can still treat myself on weight watchers.

Day 32
Because dealing with large numbers is overwhelming. Points are easier.

Day 33
Because I need accountability. I am doing workshops plus I'm in about 10 Facebook groups, 4 Reddit subreddits, blogging and using connect.

Day 34
Because it's real life and I'm working on learning how to make that work and CHANGE how I feel about food.

Day 35
Because freestyle is so simple! Out of points for the day? Eat 0 point foods for dinner! Want to treat yourself? Eat mostly 0 points before and after your treat. Going away for the weekend? Don't track portions (estimate though) of 0 point foods!

Week 4 Weigh In

Down 4lbs! This was a huge shocker considering it was thanksgiving weekend and we were away for the weekend visiting family with food slightly out of my control.

SW 246.2
CW 228.4

Total loss 17.8lbs

Munchies

One thing I find that helps me when I have the munchies and need something to help with the hand to mouth craving (usually in the car), is sunflower seeds.

I love salt. The serving size is so big really since you don't eat the actual shells. I don't track them since I can't eat many at a time before they make my tongue feel funny.

Lowish cal, takes time to eat, salt. It's perfect for me.

Just don't forget to drink lots of water if you get salted.

Flagged

So I went to my "workshop" on Wednesday, after 1.5 weeks and lost 4 lbs. I will update everything eventually but it's been evading my mind when I'm on the computer.

Anyways. 4lbs. So I go to the scale. She plugs it in and tells me I've been flagged for rapid weight loss. Here starts the speculation on what that means. Facebook groups haven't heard of it before.

Eventually I go and question an online rep and it's no big deal, just a note for the wellness guide (scale person) to check in with you to be sure your habits are still good.

Nothing I can control there. Blue dotting every day at this point. I'm eating enough. I'm eating chocolates almost nightly.

Just thought it was funny.

My weekend away

For my weekend away, I brought myself turkey & cheese sandwiches (3pt per sandwich), turkey and corn good thins (3pt per serving), carrots, bananas, WW caramel chocolate snack bars. I ate 2 sandwiches total and all the turkey/crackers. The bananas ended up squished and the carrots, well I made the mistake of taking the whole bag instead of pre-portioned baggies so it was difficult to bring them anywhere.

Day 1 we didn't leave until after school so it was just dinner out. I planned low for the rest of my day, doing intermittent fasting for the morning and eating at lunch time. We drove through mcdonald's drive thru and I tried a grilled artisan chicken (8pt) with cheese added on. It was delicious. I had 3pt sandwich instead of ordering fries even though I had the pts. I rolled 4 into weeklies and ended with 10pts left for the day.

Day 2 we had hotel breakfast. I stuck to fruit and hardboiled eggs, leaving breakfast at 0pts. The only thing that was there that I missed was pastries. But those don't need to be eaten for breakfast anyways. Lunch we ate at costco and I brought turkey/crackers and a sandwich, for a total of 6pts. Dinner was thanksgiving early and I had a bunch of peas, carrots, turkey breast and some potatoes along with a lot of water. I estimated a few pts for the potatoes but 0 for the rest. I had half of a half moon/black and white cookie that we brought with us for 9pts and a small sliver of pumpkin pie. I'm sure I overestimated that but the calorie count I found online didn't make any sense to me (too low), so I estimated with another type in the app. With the overestimating, I went over 1pt into my weeklies.

Day 3 we had more hotel breakfast. Today the kids helped me eat my eggs so I went back for more (YAY!). Fruit/eggs for 0pts. Lunch I brought along 2 of my cracker/turkey baggies (7pts total) as everyone else ate out at the food court at a mall. I debated having KFC corn and green beans with some chicken but ultimately ate my food since I decided it wasn't worth spending money on anyways. When we took off, we were on schedule for a 6:30 arrival back home, so we got the whiny kids some burgers at mcdonald's again. I had the artisan grilled chicken again for 8pts plus the cheese (estimated 2pts) and an ice cream cone (app said 9pts). Ended my day with 4pts leftover to roll over.

I drank water solely except the 3rd day where we had a few cans of diet pepsi from the hotel and drank maybe 2 and water the rest of the time, including from mcdonald's. '

I 1000% believe that freestyle is much easier to travel on than any other program I've been on.

100 Days of Why Day 27-30

Day 27
Because even skinny people will gain weight/have tighter pants when they overeat unhealthy foods. The difference is that I bought bigger pants to keep eating those foods. They choose to reign themselves in a bit the next while to stay in their old pants.

Day 28
Because I'm learning the healthier choices for fast food.

Day 29
Because I'm learning to listen to my stomach about food portions.

Day 30
Because Kraft Dinner doesn't need to be my meal. It can be a side dish, no matter how often I'd eat a whole box by myself.

100 Days of Why Day 26

Because 3 bites is enough to be satisfied with something unhealthy most of the time.

My "3 bite mommy rule". I take 3 bites of something that I love that my kids are eating and then I'm happy.

100 Days of Why Day 23-25

Day 23
Because I want ONE chin.

Day 24
Because I get winded walking uphill.

Day 25
Because I would love to be the soccer playing, active, running mom with my kids.

Calendar Challenge - September

Week 3 Weigh-In and Goals

Down 3.4lbs!

SW 246.2
CW 232.4

Total loss 13.8lbs

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Goals for Next Week:

• blue dots five days
• drink 4 glasses of water (each glass is 20oz)
• activity 3 days a week