100 Days of Why Day 79-88

Day 79
Because not every style at costco comes in XXL and I've had to put some clothes back that I'd really like to have because it didn't.

Day 80
Because I'm tired of playing the "will it or won't it fit" game when I see a size.

Day 81
Because I was able to wear my 25lb toddler without pain for a while today.

Day 82
Because I'm tired of being extra large or extra extra large.

Day 83
Because I'm more in tune with my body.

Day 84
Because feeling hunger isn't bad.

Day 85
Because intermittent fasting has regulated my menstrual cycle.

Day 86
Because I can buy some clothing without paying the extra "plus" fee.

Day 87
Because finally I know that a women's XL will almost always fit me!

Day 88
Because today I'm wearing a shirt that was 1-2 sizes too small that I bought before I started WW again.

Christmas Challenge Week 5

Goal: 35lbs lost total (10.4lbs for challenge) DONE!

1. -3.4lbs
2. -2.4lbs
3. -2.4lbs
4. -5.6lbs
5. -0.8lbs

Remaining: ACHIEVED!

I will keep going to see how much I can lose before christmas!

Week 12 Weigh In

Officially the most amount I've ever lost at one time <3 0.8lbs from 40lbs!

SW 246.2
CW 207.0

Mini Challenge Week 3

Challenge Starting Weight: 215.8

Week 1: 213.4 (-2.4lbs)
Week 2: 207.8 (-5.6lbs)
Week 3: 207.0 (-0.8lbs)
Week 4:
Week 5:

Challenge Goal Weight: 206.2

Calendar Challenge - November

Mini Challenge Weeks 1&2

I've got 3 weeks left until my parents arrive for christmas on Dec 16th. Two weeks ago I posted on connect, challenging myself to lose a total of 39lbs in those 5 weeks (8.6lbs to lose at that point). My maximum loss at any given time in my on-and-off journey has been 38.8lbs.

Challenge Starting Weight: 215.8

Week 1: 213.4 (-2.4lbs)
Week 2: 207.8 (-5.6lbs)
Week 3:
Week 4:
Week 5:

Challenge Goal Weight: 207.2

It looks like I've currently got this one in the bag, so I'm amending my goal to be 40lbs down, putting my CGW at 206.2.

100 Days of Why Days 74-78

Day 74
Because I'm proud of myself for sticking to it.

Day 75
Because I don't want to LIE about my weight.

Day 76
Because I don't want to be embarrassed by having to tell someone my weight.

Day 77
Because ONEderland is in sight.

Day 78
Because I've almost surpassed my highest amount of weight lost at at given time.

Christmas Challenge Week 4

Goal: 35lbs lost total (10.4lbs for challenge) DONE!

1. -3.4lbs
2. -2.4lbs
3. -2.4lbs
4. -5.6lbs

Remaining: ACHIEVED!

I will keep going to see how much I can lose before christmas!

Week 11 Weigh In

What a shocker to wake up to this morning! I did not expect such a big loss right after my period started and right after thanksgiving!

I've surpassed my original WW start weight now and I'm 0.6lbs away from the highest amount of weight I've ever lost on WW. I'm only 8lbs away from ONEderland now! It's SINGLE DIGITS y'all!!! And once I get there, I'm striking distance from 50lbs lost and from overweight BMI instead of obese BMI!

SW 246.2
CW 207.8

Christmas Challenge Week 3

Goal: 35lbs lost total (10.4lbs for challenge)

1. -3.4lbs
2. -2.4lbs
3. -2.4lbs

Remaining: 2.2lbs in 6 weeks

Week 10 Weigh In

2.4lbs until I'm at my original WW start weight! 6.2lbs until I'm down the most weight I've ever lost at one time.

SW 246.2
CW 213.4

100 Days of Why Day 66-73

Day 66
Because I'm enjoying buying new clothes.

Day 67
Because clothes can make me feel good instead of sloppy.

Day 68
Because life isn't about food.

Day 69
Because I am capable of dealing with feeling without eating.

Day 70
Because it's a lifestyle and I can still eat what I want with moderation.

Day 71
Because a single binge won't ruin things.

Day 72
Because I don't need to finish the rest of my carton of ice cream.

Day 73
Because I'm learning to listen to my body.

100 Days of Why Day 60-65

Day 60
Because I'm determined to lose over christmas again. The holiday season doesn't need to be full of gluttony.

Day 61
Because next summer I don't want to be sweating like a pig.

Day 62
Because next summer I want to be wearing shorts.

Day 63
Because I've been wearing the same couple pairs of capris for 10 years and I'm tired of not having any other nice summer bottoms.

Day 64
Because I'm wearing sweat pants but I'm tired of being sloppy.

Day 65
Because I'd like to be able to ALWAYS fit the clothes that I like at costco.

Week 9 Weigh In

4.8lbs before I'm at my original WW start weight of 211. Half way between 219 and 209 now! I've already JUST passed my original pre-WW start weight of 216.2!

SW 246.2
CW 215.8

Christmas Challenge Week 2

Goal: 35lbs lost total (10.4lbs for challenge)

1. -3.4lbs
2. -2.4lbs

Remaining: 4.6lbs in 6 weeks

Turkeys

So last week I was down 28lbs. At the grocery store, looking at turkeys they were all mostly 14ish lbs each so I picked up 2 and said to my husband, "take a picture of me. this is how much weight I've lost."

On my WW group, I've got over 1500 likes at this point and I'm shocked! I guess it's a different kind of post than the usual before and after posts lol.

25lbs

As of now I've lost more than 25lbs.

That's heavier than my 20 month old weighs.

That's more than 100 sticks of butter.

That's more than 57 vinyl records.

That's more than 3 gallons of water.

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Don't mind my mirror, my children are disgusting and I knew if I didn't take the picture, I'd forget. 

This is what 28lbs less looks like on me. 

Christmas Challenge Week 1

Started this this week. There were 8 weigh ins until christmas and I set a goal of reaching 35lbs lost by christmas (dec 23rd for me). That was a total of 10.4lbs in 8 weeks.

Progress:

Week 8 Weigh In

Lost 3.4 pounds! Again it was extremely unexpected. I was just hoping for the 0.4 but was surprised with the extra 3 bringing me above and beyond the 25lb charm this week!

I did similar to last week where I ate a lot of weeklies on sunday and stayed towards the high end of my blue dot the rest of the week and it worked again. Makes me nervous all week long though lol.

I've finally broke into the 210's! 8.2lbs before I'm at my original WW start weight. ONEderland is getting so close now! I'm thrilled!

SW 246.2
CW 218.2

Snow White

100 Days of Why Day 58 & 59

Day 58
Because I'm tired of my wardrobe and it looks sloppy all the time. I'd like to get nice stuff and have it fit.

Day 59
Because food doesn't rule me. I am the boss.

100 Days of Why Day 54-57

Day 54
Because I'm tired of dressing in sweats and big shirts. I feel sloppy.

Day 55
Because I'm STILL working on listening to my body regarding too much of something... too much food, too much sweets. I'm awful at putting things I enjoy back if I'm just finished. I'll eat until I'm done.

Day 56
Because I'm experiencing less pain in my ankles, knees and hips already.

Day 57
Because hopefully that damn 25lb charm will be mine today! >:)

Your diet is...

100 Days of Why Day 52 & 53

Day 52
Because I want to LIKE pictures of me, not feel like I look fat. I'm tired of telling my husband "let me see that before you post it to facebook".

Day 53
Because I need to be present in more pictures of my children. I want them to remember the memories. I need to be in more pictures, without torturing myself thinking they look awful.

100 Days of Why Day 51

Because it's not just about motivation. It's about persistence. And I will not give up.

Lacking insulation

Found this on FB this morning. Feels just about right for me. Down 24lbs of insulation!

Was talking to a friend about being so cold, he said maybe you’re sick..I said “nahh im just down 31,5 lbs insulation”

100 Days of Why Day 50

Because I can control my body even when I am craving something. I don't NEED to give in.

Week 7 Weigh In

Lost 3.2 pounds! How unexpected! I even asked the weigh in lady if she was joking haha!

Brings me to 24.6lbs lost and only 0.4lbs until my 25lb charm! It also earns me my 10% loss.

This week was ROUGH. I couldn't stop thinking about chocolate all week. I didn't cave, but I managed to plan in chocolates where possible this week. I wasn't expecting much loss at all. It was showing me as gaining weight as of thursday so I amped up the water and watched my points. Oh and this all was in addition to eating THIRTY-SEVEN points in cookies on sunday.... It was 3 cookies that we made from scratch. Ouch!! Then yesterday, AF showed up, which explains the chocolate cravings this week so I expected to be up due to water retention from that.

I'm so relieved that it worked out for me. All I was hoping for was half a pound loss.

SW 246.2
CW 221.6

Calendar Challenge - October

100 Days of Why Day 48 & 49

Day 48
Because I'm not going to let a gain week throw me off and screw me up.

Day 49
Because this time it's about me, my health, my feelings about myself.

100 Days of Why Day 46 & 47

Day 46
Because I don't need soda pop and I prefer other things over it 9/10 times.

Day 47
Because I love seeing the changes in the mirror.

Soda Musings

Discovered something about myself the other day.

First some facts:

1. I enjoy water. Fridge cold, through a straw. Which is a good thing for losing weight. 
2. I also enjoy soda and in the past I've had issues with drinking way too much (like 5-6 cans of diet per day, yes I know diet is bad for you ty).
3. I need a drink with dinner and I chug it, drinking 20oz usually by the time I'm done.
4. I kicked the soda habit for the most part because I was sick of the caffeine giving me headaches if I didn't want to keep up the same quantity from day to day. Usually I drink at least 80-100oz of water per day now.

I can't drink very much soda anymore. I used to drink 20oz at a time and go back for more. Now I pour myself about 10oz in the evenings and usually end up tossing it when it gets flat or makes my teeth feel icky.

EXCEPT if I drink it with meals. I'll still chug my soda then, and the whole 20oz, and I will really enjoy it, the way I used to, not the way it feels when I drink it alone now.


But I don't want to. If I crave soda, I'll drink a bit.

100 Days of Why Day 44 & 45

Day 44
Because I'm tired of quitting on myself.

Day 45
Because I'm determined to surpass my streak of leaving around 30ish lbs lost and 18ish weeks in.

100 Days of Why Day 41-43

Day 41
Because I didn't quit or give in to temptation on a rough week after a gain and LOST! Motivation reignited.

Day 42
Because it's not always necessary to be in "celebration mode" at a restaurant. It's okay to eat like a home meal at a restaurant.

Day 43
Because I went out for dinner, ordered a meal different from what I usually order and didn't even miss my normal dinner! I usually ordered a cuban (pulled pork, ham, swiss, pickles, bun) with fries and cornbread and ate all the leftover cornbread from everyone else because it's good. Instead I ordered a plate of pork by itself, fries, a plain bun (intended to make a sandwich with the pork) and it came with 2pc cornbread already. I immediately cut my bun in half and gave half to the toddler and shared my fries. I ate all my pork, a few fries and 1.5 pieces of cornbread. Tracked and was within my points for the day. BAM! I can do this. I can make better choices. I'll leave my favourite items for special meals.

Week 6 Weigh In

Lost 4.2 whopping pounds! Holy wow! 

Brings me to 21.4lbs lost in 6 weeks. This is the fastest it's ever come off in the past. I'm thrilled that it's working and working well for me!

SW 246.2
CW 224.8

100 Days of Why Day 40

Because my ankles hurt less now, but after a day on my feet, they're still super sore.

Struggling

I'm really struggling with my motivation lately. That gain last week, though I tried not to allow it to get me down, really has messed with my head. I realize I'm down 17.2 lbs in 5 weeks, but I'm just so munchy and tired and feeling like it's not worth it.

I'll be relieved if I find out in a week that it's actually PMS and that was water retention, but who knows. Cycle is perma messed since children and I can't count on anything.

I'm liking how my clothes are fitting better though. Trying to find the good things about this all and reasons to stick with it despite how I'm feeling currently.

100 Days of Why Day 38 & 39

Day 38
Because I am in control.

Day 39
Because my cravings don't have to win.

100 Days of Why Day 36 & 37

I'm finding it hard to remember which things I've used and which I haven't!

Day 36
Because my clothes are feeling looser.

Day 37
Because I'm not dealing with as much pain anymore!

Week 5 Weigh In

Boo! My half week from wed-sun resulted in a gain. I didn't expect MUCH loss, but I did expect some. I guess perhaps I was retaining water plus perhaps that 4lbs loss last week was just a bit much. At least with a gain on my record, WW might leave me alone about the rapid weight loss.

Up 0.6lbs. Bringing me down to 17.2lbs lost in 5 weeks. Which is still DAMN good. 

SW 246.2

CW 229

100 Days of Why Day 31-35

The "Why WW?" Edition

Day 31
Because I can still treat myself on weight watchers.

Day 32
Because dealing with large numbers is overwhelming. Points are easier.

Day 33
Because I need accountability. I am doing workshops plus I'm in about 10 Facebook groups, 4 Reddit subreddits, blogging and using connect.

Day 34
Because it's real life and I'm working on learning how to make that work and CHANGE how I feel about food.

Day 35
Because freestyle is so simple! Out of points for the day? Eat 0 point foods for dinner! Want to treat yourself? Eat mostly 0 points before and after your treat. Going away for the weekend? Don't track portions (estimate though) of 0 point foods!

Week 4 Weigh In

Down 4lbs! This was a huge shocker considering it was thanksgiving weekend and we were away for the weekend visiting family with food slightly out of my control.

SW 246.2
CW 228.4

Total loss 17.8lbs

Munchies

One thing I find that helps me when I have the munchies and need something to help with the hand to mouth craving (usually in the car), is sunflower seeds.

I love salt. The serving size is so big really since you don't eat the actual shells. I don't track them since I can't eat many at a time before they make my tongue feel funny.

Lowish cal, takes time to eat, salt. It's perfect for me.

Just don't forget to drink lots of water if you get salted.

Flagged

So I went to my "workshop" on Wednesday, after 1.5 weeks and lost 4 lbs. I will update everything eventually but it's been evading my mind when I'm on the computer.

Anyways. 4lbs. So I go to the scale. She plugs it in and tells me I've been flagged for rapid weight loss. Here starts the speculation on what that means. Facebook groups haven't heard of it before.

Eventually I go and question an online rep and it's no big deal, just a note for the wellness guide (scale person) to check in with you to be sure your habits are still good.

Nothing I can control there. Blue dotting every day at this point. I'm eating enough. I'm eating chocolates almost nightly.

Just thought it was funny.

My weekend away

For my weekend away, I brought myself turkey & cheese sandwiches (3pt per sandwich), turkey and corn good thins (3pt per serving), carrots, bananas, WW caramel chocolate snack bars. I ate 2 sandwiches total and all the turkey/crackers. The bananas ended up squished and the carrots, well I made the mistake of taking the whole bag instead of pre-portioned baggies so it was difficult to bring them anywhere.

Day 1 we didn't leave until after school so it was just dinner out. I planned low for the rest of my day, doing intermittent fasting for the morning and eating at lunch time. We drove through mcdonald's drive thru and I tried a grilled artisan chicken (8pt) with cheese added on. It was delicious. I had 3pt sandwich instead of ordering fries even though I had the pts. I rolled 4 into weeklies and ended with 10pts left for the day.

Day 2 we had hotel breakfast. I stuck to fruit and hardboiled eggs, leaving breakfast at 0pts. The only thing that was there that I missed was pastries. But those don't need to be eaten for breakfast anyways. Lunch we ate at costco and I brought turkey/crackers and a sandwich, for a total of 6pts. Dinner was thanksgiving early and I had a bunch of peas, carrots, turkey breast and some potatoes along with a lot of water. I estimated a few pts for the potatoes but 0 for the rest. I had half of a half moon/black and white cookie that we brought with us for 9pts and a small sliver of pumpkin pie. I'm sure I overestimated that but the calorie count I found online didn't make any sense to me (too low), so I estimated with another type in the app. With the overestimating, I went over 1pt into my weeklies.

Day 3 we had more hotel breakfast. Today the kids helped me eat my eggs so I went back for more (YAY!). Fruit/eggs for 0pts. Lunch I brought along 2 of my cracker/turkey baggies (7pts total) as everyone else ate out at the food court at a mall. I debated having KFC corn and green beans with some chicken but ultimately ate my food since I decided it wasn't worth spending money on anyways. When we took off, we were on schedule for a 6:30 arrival back home, so we got the whiny kids some burgers at mcdonald's again. I had the artisan grilled chicken again for 8pts plus the cheese (estimated 2pts) and an ice cream cone (app said 9pts). Ended my day with 4pts leftover to roll over.

I drank water solely except the 3rd day where we had a few cans of diet pepsi from the hotel and drank maybe 2 and water the rest of the time, including from mcdonald's. '

I 1000% believe that freestyle is much easier to travel on than any other program I've been on.

100 Days of Why Day 27-30

Day 27
Because even skinny people will gain weight/have tighter pants when they overeat unhealthy foods. The difference is that I bought bigger pants to keep eating those foods. They choose to reign themselves in a bit the next while to stay in their old pants.

Day 28
Because I'm learning the healthier choices for fast food.

Day 29
Because I'm learning to listen to my stomach about food portions.

Day 30
Because Kraft Dinner doesn't need to be my meal. It can be a side dish, no matter how often I'd eat a whole box by myself.

100 Days of Why Day 26

Because 3 bites is enough to be satisfied with something unhealthy most of the time.

My "3 bite mommy rule". I take 3 bites of something that I love that my kids are eating and then I'm happy.

100 Days of Why Day 23-25

Day 23
Because I want ONE chin.

Day 24
Because I get winded walking uphill.

Day 25
Because I would love to be the soccer playing, active, running mom with my kids.

Calendar Challenge - September

Week 3 Weigh-In and Goals

Down 3.4lbs!

SW 246.2
CW 232.4

Total loss 13.8lbs

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Goals for Next Week:

• blue dots five days
• drink 4 glasses of water (each glass is 20oz)
• activity 3 days a week

Planning ahead for a weekend trip

Snack list:

Hard-boiled eggs
Applesauce cups
Fruit
Carrots/celery
Turkey and crackers
Crackers and laughing cow
Popcorn

100 Days of Why Day 22

Because if my 85 year old grandma can be fit and healthy, SO CAN I!

100 Days of Why Day 21

Because not every food is worth the calories/points and that's something I need to learn.

Saturday we grocery shop and eat lunch at Costco. I take my 3 pt lunch of good thins corn crackers, 99% FF turkey deli meat and a banana. My family eats Costco hot dogs. I never really liked them anyways but I tolerated them. Not worth the points!

100 Days of Why Day 18-20

Day 18
Because I want my wedding ring to fit again instead of wearing a cheapy from Amazon.

Day 19 Because I need to work on portion control. Even eating in my points, this week I've had two dinners where I ate too much and felt uncomfortable afterwards.

Day 20 Because it's a lifelong change and not just a quick fix.

100 Days of Why Day 17

Because currently I "live to eat" rather than "eat to live".

Old Program vs Freestyle

One of the biggest differences I see with the original points back in 2010 is that it's much easier to stay in plan away from the house.

When I had a weekend away in 2010, I bought tons of WW snacks and oatmeals and ate those along with the food provided, making choices as good as I could. Dinner has always been one of the hardest for me to track and a provided dinner was even harder. Salad and pizza? That's a rough one to fit in to the points.

With freestyle now, I know that I could have 0 pt eggs and estimate my bacon and toast for breakfast. Or I could have applesauce and fruit for breakfast like I do right now and have a simple 0 point breakfast, leaving more points available for the rest of the day. I know that I could have simple dinner of chicken and veggies for 0 points. I know that a salad without dressing will be 0 points.

The addition of all the 0 point foods means eating away from home is infinitely easier because aside from worrying about not being overly full, you don't really have to work too hard to estimate portion sizes for counting points.

100 Days of Why Day 14-16

Day 14
Because I hate how most of my clothes look on my body, but I can’t justify buying myself many new clothes since I don’t want to be at this weight.

Day 15
Because I can eat out and still lose weight.

Day 16
Because I feel happy seeing the numbers go down (and will feel happy with my clothes fitting me properly)

Week 2 Weigh-In and Goals

Down 2.2lbs and received my 10lb charm!

SW 246.2
CW 235.8

Total loss 10.4lbs

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Goals for Next Week:

• blue dots five days
• drink 4 glasses of water (each glass is 20oz)
• gym 3 days a week (or gym + 15 min exercise at home/out)

Birthday Blues

Yesterday was my birthday. The blues started the night before when I realized we really didn't have the funds to do what we had planned (uber to dinner with a friend, have drinks, get food for hubby and uber back). I went back and forth on cancelling so many times and eventually we decided we would go anyways and she offered to treat, taking some stress off me.

I woke up on my birthday (number 30 by the way!), having had a dream about a friend from BC (we moved to NY over a year ago and I miss everyone so much that I've been in tears quite a bit lately). I didn't get any messages from any of my BC friends, no facebook posts, no shout out in a small group that I'm still in of a lot of friends, none of my friends liked my birthday post from my mom. Just clearly, I wasn't on any of their minds. They were all on my mind so much as I wished I could be going out with a large group of friends to celebrate my birthday. I know everyone is a parent and busy and I miss birthdays all the time on facebook, but it just hurts so much that not even one of them said anything yesterday.

I'm proud to announce, however, that I did not even think once of sitting down with food and drowning my sorrows.

My local friend and I went out to a new restaurant, that opened yesterday and was owned by the realtor that helped both of us find our homes. He even made a reservation for just us and refused all other reservations. Frustratingly, there wasn't a low point option in the starter menu that he was using for the weekend :( I got a burger and tracked it as best as I could. I didn't finish my kettle chips that came with it and I tried 2 of the risotto bites that we got as an appetizer. I drank water and an apple martini because apparently "you have to drink on your 30th birthday" lol. Not worth the points. I don't enjoy drinking but I finished the one. After that, we went across the street for dessert where I got peanut butter pie and it was delicious but huge. I had about half of it and brought the rest home. I plan to feed it to my kids but I'm not sure when.

100 Days of Why Day 13

Because emotional eating is ALL emotional.

Realization

Discovered why my sandwich was so high in points. Honey ham (2SP per serving). Of course. Should have clued in. Black forest is much nicer (1SP per serving). 99% FF turkey is even nicer (0SP per serving)! However, turkey lacks the fat to be able to be heated and browned in a frying pan without sticking :( May try I can't believe it's not butter spray next time as I like the flavour that I get when I cook it before putting on a sandwich.

Old me vs. New me

I’m still able to enjoy the things I like with moderate changes.

Example:

Pulled pork sandwiches:
Old me: 2 toasted buns, cheese on top and bottom, pork
New me: 2 pieces of toast, grated extra SHARP cheddar (sharp for strong flavour, grated because it spreads out easily and is easy to weigh), pork. Eat with fork and knife. 2 open faced sandwiches.

Weekend lunch plus ice cream:
Old me: soda, costco hot dog, ice cream (2 scoops because it’s amazing)
New me: water, packed crackers, ham and banana, shared ice cream with toddler

Stir fry dinner:

Old me: piled on the rice, light on veggies

New me: measured my rice, piled on veggies

Past sidebar goal achievements

I felt like these didn't need to be front and center and more, but I didn't want to lose the memories of all I've achieved in the past.

Goals

Weight-Related Goals:

1. 5lbs - achieved Sept 16
2. 10lbs
3. 5% (12lbs)
4. 15lbs
5. 20lbs
6. 10% (24lbs)
7. 25lbs
8. 30lbs
9. 35lbs
10. 15% (36lbs)
11. 40lbs
12. 45lbs
13. ONEderland (46.4lbs)
14. 20% (48lbs)
15. 50lbs

I’ll stop there for now as the list gets super long if I keep going. I’ll make a new one when I get closer to the end of this one!

Non Weight Goals:

• Be able to replace my underwear at Victoria’s secret sales! Plus sized stores don’t sell the type I like for the price I want.
• Fit my awesome doctor who shirt (I have 2 in unisex L)
• Sweat less mowing the lawn
• Less/no ankle/knee/hip pain
• Fit into honeymoon dress (women’s M)

Among others that I can’t think of right now.

What weighs 5lbs?

1. 20 sticks of butter
2. A bag of potatoes
3. A full grown Chihuahua
4. A small bag of flour

Receiving a 5lb award at the meeting today felt great. Almost to 10 as well. Hopefully next week I’ll do a 10lb version!

100 Days of Why Week 2 (so far)

Day 8
Because the program WORKS!

Day 9
Because I’d like to wear my hair down without sweating.

Day 10
Because I need to change my mindset about food. Rewarding myself with food is not good thinking. Eating huge portions is not smart.

Day 11
Because it’s possible to have treats without binging.

Day 12
Because I sweat from places I’d like to not sweat, or sweat less.

Anyone can workout...

Week 1 Weigh In and Next Week's Goals

September 16, 2018

Down 8.2lbs and received my 5lb charm!

SW 246.2
CW 238

Total loss 8.2lbs

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Goals for Next Week:

• blue dots five days (fri/sat are our birthdays) which means no less than 10 points under and no more than 5 points over my points allowance
• drink 4 glasses of water (each glass is 20oz)
• gym 3 days a week (or gym + 15 min exercise at home/out)

100 Days of Why Week 1

These were all made on different days, I just want to put them together instead of make tons of different posts for them. Future ones I'll put in their own posts.

Day 1 

Because my joints hurt from the extra weight and I don’t want to be in pain all the time.

Day 2
Because I want to set a good example for my children

Day 3 

Because I want to be able to shop for clothes in any store and find things that fit.

Day 4
Because I want to stop looking in the mirror and thinking “when did I gain that much weight?”

Day 5
Because yard work makes me drip sweat and feel gross.

Day 6
Because I want to be taken seriously at the doctor’s office and not shrugged off for something that’s actually wrong, being told “try losing weight”.

Day 7
Because I need to learn REAL portion control.

Before Picture

Day 1. Sunday September 9, 2018

SW 246.2

GW somewhere around 150, I’ll see what looks right on my frame when I get there

Don’t mind my icky mirror. The kids bang their toothbrushes.

This is me

It's been a while. Quite a while. I've been back on plan for 11 days now but I was trying other sources of blogging like tumblr. I don't like them as much. So I'm back here and it's gonna be a wave of posts coming in while I post everything here.

I’m a 30 year old stay at home mom/chauffeur to 3 small kids, yes 3 now. They are (almost) 6, 4 and 19 months. I started this blog back when we were trying to conceive our oldest... 7 years ago!

I like video games (world of Warcraft mostly) and netflix binging. I don’t like many forms of exercise and the ones I don’t dislike, I would still prefer to be gaming instead of doing.

I have yo-yo’d up and down multiple times in the last 8 years. Before my wedding in 2010, I lost 30lbs, falling off due to stress after my grandpa died, gaining it all back plus some. After my first miscarriage in 2011, I jumped back on as something to focus myself on and hopefully help us conceive again and lost 30lbs, only to gain it back and never restart after our first was born. A few other times I’ve tried for shorter periods of time and lost motivation.

This time I am determined and I feel like my mind is in the right place. I want to do this for ME, for MY health. It's not just about being skinnier and liking who I see in the mirror.

I don’t want to remove all of the activities that I like from my life and switch to exercise instead, but I’m trying to find a balance. With my oldest in 1st grade and my middle in preschool, I’ve got a few hours with just my youngest. We have registered for a YMCA membership and I will head there to work out while she is in preschool. Fingers crossed the baby cooperates with the childcare there or it will end up just being swimming with him -_-

My extra weight classifies me as obese, though I didn’t feel that big until after our third baby when my joints took a beating.

So, here we go again, for the last time!